waking up.

confusion can be paralyzing.

i read that on one of my favorite blogs today and it rings so true of my life right now. there is so much confusion, not just in my life, but in the lives of some of my closest friends. it's crippling at times and outright scary. filled with so many questions that require way too much patience than most can handle. and i get into these ruts where i feel so alone and headed towards too many dead ends and i wonder what i did to deserve this disaster as my life.

but then i step back. disaster? life may not be close to perfect, but, in reality it's no disaster. so there's no white picket fence and 2.3 kids in the next year...or two years. but otherwise, i guess i have it pretty damn good. i may wake up alone, but at least i'm waking up. i need to remind myself of that more.