the ex is in tampa. he hasn't called, but has sent short, meaningless text messages. although he said he's call. more photos of him and the girl he says he doesn't like are posted online. they seem to hang out a lot. i don't think he likes me like he says. i think he just wants me to wait around for him to possibly come around. he wants me to stay around as his option. if he ever decides to grow up, and not just SAY he's growing up, he figures i'll be there ready. i wasn't ready last time i let him back in. i made it hard for him. but, i caved too soon. i feel like i'm caving again, but without him asking me to. without him even being sure he wants me to. he doesn't seem to care about me in the way i deserve for him to.
after my cousins wedding and the whole "husband finding game," i think maybe my family does have something right. i need to stop wasting my time. i'll never be open to a relationship with the ex still bouncing around in my heart. i need to let go. and not fake let go like i say every other week, but really, truly, take down his pictures, ignore his calls LET HIM GO.
i started with a text message this morning.
me: you don't care about me, so let me get over this.
there was no response.
i have decided to rechannel my ex energy into working out. 3 weeks until the beach, so this should work out nicely.
A quote I like...
Live your dreams now, to any degree that you can. With every purchase. Every decision. Every hello and goodbye. Every assignment. Every conversation. Every meal. Every morning, afternoon and evening. And never, ever, ever look back.
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