overcome.

it's strange how hanging out a few time, a million e-mails and a few charming text messages and phone conversations can make one swoon...ok, it's actually not strange at all and it's exactly how i'm feeling. mr.facebook and i's e-mail banter is still going strong. we've extended it to text mesages and phone calls too. and we are hanging out this sunday. and i can't wait.

although i've only known him a week, i really like him and have high hopes. i know i'm usually so cynical about suck things...like, when my friend's swear a guy is "the one" after a few dates. maybe i'm simply overcome by the attention. whatever it is, i like this feeling and i intend to run with it as long as i can!

as for the ex...we had dinner last night. it was actually kind of boring. we did talk a little about us and he admitted that he too finds it hard to just be friends. he said that although a lot went wrong on monday, he still likes me and when he returns from tampa in two weeks, he wants to hang out more. i think we both just got overcome with talking and making plans when he was in tampa the last time, that we didn't stop to be realistic about what was happening between us. yes, we have a connection that in undeniable, but are either of us ever real about how it will all work? we've broken up twice and have been trying to figure out where our love belongs in the grand scheme of our lives for YEARS. maybe it is time we stop trying to figure everything out and just start living. being happy. together or apart. it's not a goodbye i guess, but a not now. not until it's right. we both keep fighting for what the other doesn't want. maybe we are finally ready to stop fighting. maybe i'll find happiness elsewhere and maybe he will too. maybe we will together. all i know is that's not gonna determine itself overnight, or this week, or next.