anywhere but here.

do you ever have those days where you want me be anywhere but where you are?

it's raining outside and i am sitting in my office alone, listening to joshua radin, which is making me mildly depressed. i've had two great weekends away and now life seems to be slowing down and i'm anxious about everything. work. guys. the future. it's all driving me a little crazy at the moment. so much going away really makes me hate coming back.

i'm also stuck thinking about a text-message fight i got in with the ex over the weekend. he really showed me that with him, i'm an option, not a priority. in tampa, i was an hour long phone call everynight. now, that he's back, with friends, i am nothing to him. he was mad that i even wanted to talk to him over the weekend. i was with my best friend and still tried to say hi. he was too busy to give me 5 seconds of his time...and he let me know. i havent't talked to him since, although he did say he's call when he got back to dallas from college station. he got my hopes up again when he was in tampa. not romantic hopes, but hopes that this friendship thing was for real. maybe it's not.

looks like i won't be talking to mr. facebook this week...he texted me last night to say he's in el paso because his grandfather had a heart attack :( poor guy.