balance.

balancing a boyfriend and a before-there-was-boy life can be hard. i think anyone would agree. i like to think i'm doing a good job at it, still going on "dates" with my girlfriends, bringing my roomate to openings rather than him and making it to happy hour and girl's nights when i don't have work conflicts. through it all, i feel like i'm missing out on a lot of stuff with my friends and although they don't say it, i'm getting silent grief for it. december has just been so crazy with restaurant openings, christmas parties for work and fun, birthdays, work dinners and everything, i feel like i can barely breathe and that i'm losing touch. maybe it's just me being stressed about the holidays and paranoid. when i get back from break, i start teaching classes and things start getting crazy with the spring issue of the magazine. should i stay at the mag? or be a teacher? am i too serious with H too soon? or is this amazing relationship exactly as it should be? am i where i'm supposed to be? through the dizziness that has become this month, these questions are making my head swell.

anywho....i had a great weekend, mainly spent with H (which i guess doesn't show good social balance- oops- but i didn't see him but once last week). double-dating, going to a restaurant's soft-reopening, attending a charity event (in which i got drunk and was later carried to bed), cooking, watching movies, laying in bed almost all day sunday and watching hours of the discivery channel. and tonight we have my work christmas dinner! hope H isn't tired of me =)

hoorah- neiman marcus just sent me a very cool christmas present, their pop up book!!! do i really want to give up my job perks to be a teacher? hmmm. i think so.