the whole being an emotional girl thing can get VERY annoying at times. i find myself getting on my own nerves all of the time and asking myself why i am crying. like, last night. for no reason i started crying while talking on AIM to my best friend...i suddenly was set on changing my career (still am, but more on that in a later post), missed college and randomly started looking at pictures of the ex. i was a mess and had brought about my own tears. i have been thinking about college a lot lately and how different everything is. i thought i had moved past missing it and had come to the point where i just miss a few people, but last night i was missing the whole experience. and, the ex comes with that experience, so it made sense to think about him too. then we started texting and then, of course, i started questioning how everything went wrong with him and us.
just when i thought i was gonna burst, H called. all my tears sucked themselves back into my tear-ducts and i was suddenly fine. it was amazing. =) and when he came over to watch a movie, i didn't think about my sad thoughts again, until once i was about to drift to sleep i whispered in his ear "please don't leave me." he grabbed by face, looked me in the eyes and said "i never plan to."
i wish i could let go of all the insecurities i harbor and realize how good i have it. that the ex breaking me in the course of my life, won't really matter. why do we let our emotions run away with us and let things that don't matter control us?
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