THAT couple.

H has consistently sent me the best e-mails for the past 5 months (yes, can you believe it- i met him 5 months ago!?). everyday i get some sort of sweet e-mail, many of which would make you vomit in your mouth. here's an example, which was sent to me this morning.

"You! ARE! YUMMY!! I could just stare at you for days and weeks and months and years and the rest of my life. . . . AND I WILL!!!!
Have a great day today babe. MMMUAH!!!!"

over the easter weekend, H and i stayed on the riverwalk in san antonio. despite his battle with food poisoning the night before we left (poor guy!) he was the most romantic guy imaginable. after spending three amazing days with him, it was hard to go all day monday without him around. luckily, yesterday he had tickets the to sneak peak of the new movie "21," so i got to spend the evening with him and his friends drinking beer at the movies, which was great. we kept staring at each other throughout the whole thing and then were caught kissing on the escalator. yes, we are THAT couple. we send cheesy e-mails, are constantly holding hands and kiss in front of hundreds of people like we don't give a damn. and i don't puke in my mouth at all.

somedays

somedays i think about you and what a year has done to me. a year ago on friday i let you go. not because i wanted to, but i had to. you forced me to. you said you loved me, but even mutual friends said that an onlooker wouldn't have known it. i was crushed that i was throwing away the "love of my life," the best thing that happened to me...and to some, the worst. you blinded me. for about two and a half years i was in love with you and did not think there was anyone i could love more. noone i could love so fast, laugh so much with and be completely myself around. you are the reason that when people claim they've met "the one," i question it. you were my second love, but my first great love. you prepared me for what i have now and how honest i have become in the last year.

but he has been the one who has really changed me. challenged me. made me see who i want to be. you may have shown me what love is, but he has shown me what love should be like.

i'm glad we talk now. i can't even remember the last time we saw each other though. i don's miss you, even when i think about you. even when i think about us. i would never go back. somedays i do wonder if you wish you could go back and change how things ended up a year ago. but, everday, i'm glad they are over. i wouldn't change a thing.

where is spring????

i think i am going crazy. i hate cold rain. i've decided that i don't even like the brief snow we got. i want spring damnit! i want to read outside, workout outside, ride my bike without turning pink, wear flip flops constantly and be able to lay out and SWIM. even thinking of swimming and laying out makes me salivate. i am obsessed with the idea of heat!!!!

when i was 3.5, my family got plucked out of wyoming and inprisoned in louisiana. i had never felt such heat and humidity. i ran around completely naked because i couldn't breath. my parents would dress me and within minutes i was just in my diaper, if even that (shouldn't i have been potty trained by 3.5????) unfortunately, there is picture evidence of my nudist summer. in many of these pictures i have a lone orange mardi gras bead on top of my head as some sort of crown. strange. after 20 something years in the south, i can now say that throwing me back to wyoming would be instant torture. i'm sure i'd love the scenery, but the cold? nothankyou.

democat

keelee is a demoCAT? get it? =)

i love march.

i love march. it means it's almost spring and this back and forth god awful weather will go away, sort of. for some reason this winter i'm really hating the cold. i want to be outside. i want to buy dresses, not sweaters. i've bought one item, yes ONE, of cold weather clothes and as much as i love it (my red GAP coat), i feel like i'm the red coat girl. i wear it WAY too much for being such a bright coat.

here are some other things i'm loving:
1) spanish cheese. H took me to texas de brazil sunday and i couldn't get enough of it!
2) the new GO international designers at target. today i tried on about 10 shirts and somehow left with just one. do i have shopping self control all of a sudden?
3) kate voegele. great singer and she's on one tree hill. =)
4) the way H takes care of me if i'm sick or hurt...he's SO sweet, it'd make you puke a lil bit in your mouth
5) how happy some of my friends are with the guys they are dating.
6) only 2 months left in my lease...bye bye ghetto!!!!