somedays

somedays i think about you and what a year has done to me. a year ago on friday i let you go. not because i wanted to, but i had to. you forced me to. you said you loved me, but even mutual friends said that an onlooker wouldn't have known it. i was crushed that i was throwing away the "love of my life," the best thing that happened to me...and to some, the worst. you blinded me. for about two and a half years i was in love with you and did not think there was anyone i could love more. noone i could love so fast, laugh so much with and be completely myself around. you are the reason that when people claim they've met "the one," i question it. you were my second love, but my first great love. you prepared me for what i have now and how honest i have become in the last year.

but he has been the one who has really changed me. challenged me. made me see who i want to be. you may have shown me what love is, but he has shown me what love should be like.

i'm glad we talk now. i can't even remember the last time we saw each other though. i don's miss you, even when i think about you. even when i think about us. i would never go back. somedays i do wonder if you wish you could go back and change how things ended up a year ago. but, everday, i'm glad they are over. i wouldn't change a thing.