has it really been a year?

a year ago exactly the ex sent me this...and it is part of what spiraled into everything that is no longer there. 365 days later and i am no longer talking to him again. 365 days later and i don't miss him at all. but, i can't believe it's been a whole year. so much has happened and i'm basically exactly where i began.

"I really want to talk to you Carrie. I know you think I lied to you. I wasn't "with" anyone when you came in town that weekend and I'm being serious. I know that what I did was wrong though. Very wrong at that. But you don't understand how much I miss you. I miss everything. I miss the way you hated stand-up comedy. I miss the way you listened to "Soul Meets Body" in your car for like two straight months. I miss our trip home from Michigan with no cd player. I miss Thursdays at 7. I have been crying thinking about that stuff. I know you think i'm just lying and I realize this is completely inappropriate, but I can't stand the idea of us never speaking again, even if I did mess up really bad. I'm not a terrible person Carrie. You have to tell me that at some point in the future you will be able to speak to me again, even if it's a long time from now. I don't care as long as the answer isn't never. There has to be something that can be done to make things better. If there's not, then i'll be devastated. But please at least acknowledge me. I miss you so much. And I didn't used to act like I did. I'm sorry. I really am so so sorry Carrie."