so good.

i am dating H (the guy i met at my friends's dad's halloween party). he is a great guy and i haven't felt so safe and happy with someone since last winter with the ex. we've been hanging out a lot this past week and a half and talk constantly. he is the sweetest guy i've ever met, which is scary since i'm so cynical and figure most things guys say are a load of crap. but, i'm trying to not put up walls. i'm trying to roll with everything and appreciate how lucky i am to have met someone like this. someone with his life together who is open to a relationship.

one thing that makes me sad is that i have allowed guys who don't treat me this great into my life. like, the ex. i loved him for so long, yet he never was so excited about me. never said nice things for no reason. never made me feel secure. and other guys just took advantage of me. if i had waited, could i have found someone like H sooner?

i am so happy right now with H. it's a weird feeling, but so good.